Who am i..?

I'm trying so hard to forget you..
You seemed to have moved on already..
It hurts so much..
I miss you..

...

I'm not usually the kind of girl to drink and smoke and kiss other girls.
But I did all of that on the weekend and i'm worried about how much I enjoyed it all..

I don't really know what kind of girl I am..
I think my main problem is that I tend to do things, not for my own benefit, but for others..
I find it hard to say no and to make decisions..

I'm going to change.